Amanda Kloots again becomes sincere and deeply personal with her followers. The TV personality was reflected at the beginning of the new year with an emotional post about her difficult holiday season after the death of her husband, Nick Cordero, because COVID-19 in July.
“The New Year has been tough, extremely difficult for me. I cried more recently than in time,” Kloots wrote in a post shared on Saturday for her Instagram Story. “I thought Christmas was going to be hard, that was worse.”
“I think because when the new year comes, you want a clean slate or forget about last year, especially 2020. But I can’t forget about last year and I won’t be able to erase that clean slate,” Kloots continued. “I also think I’m a little scared of what might happen in a year, how much things can change.”
Kloots also said that he feels that “everything I went through is finally following me and I am finally ready to go to therapy to address the trauma.”
Kloots and Cordero tied the knot in September 2017 and met their son, Elvis, in June 2019. Cordero was hospitalized with COVID-19 in April, and after a roller coaster three months of operations and medical countermeasures, the actor died on Broadway in July. 5.
Kloots continued his emotional message, writing, “I share all this as I continue my honesty about pain and loss. As it drops and flows, it changes a lot. How he hides and then finds you. . How is a continuous struggle even if I remain positive and active. How can you cry for a few days for two seconds or two hours. How it makes you feel so alone and confused. “
“To be honest, to acknowledge all this instead of hiding it, it helped me. I hope it will help you,” she concluded.
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In the midst of the holidays, Kloots reflected on the hardships she endured this year and the death of her husband. On Christmas Eve, she and her Cordero published a comeback celebrating their first Christmas with their son.
Last month, Kloots was announced as being a new co-host for “The Talk”. She, along with Elaine Welteroth, will join the current hosts Sharon Osbourne, Sheryl Underwood and Carrie Ann Inaba.
This story originally appeared on ETonline, entitled “Amanda Kloots activates the New Year’s message in motion after the loss of Nick Cordero”